Blog Pretending Everything is Ok. Abuse and OCD Struggles. 5 Jul 20215 Jul 2021 Do you have those days where you wonder if everyone sees beneath the surface to what you’re hiding? The days where you’re not sure how you’re making it through and…
Blog… Deadlock, Stalemate, Standstill 16 Apr 202118 Apr 2021 News release: Social anxiety causes impasse. Or that’s what my internal news header would read if I had one. Think Inside Out kinda world going on (now I need to…
Blog Hashimotos, My Answer to Prayer? Say What? 15 Apr 202128 May 2021 Most people when I tell them I have Hashimotos, they look at me sideways, as they don't know what I'm talking about. Or they look at my lovely colorful hair…
Blog… Recipe for Scrupulosity/Religious OCD. 14 Apr 202128 May 2021 I have been spending a lot time contemplating my "backstory". My theory is, if I figure out the why, I can therefore figure out a solution and fix what was…
Blog… Stopping the Downward Spiral. 12 Apr 202128 May 2021 Anxiety kept me from church Sunday, and now I’m going down the rabbit hole of depression and even more anxiety. It feels shallow to admit it stems from not receiving…
Blog “Stupid seems to be in the air” 11 Apr 202115 May 2021 open.spotify.com/track/5f6JnxY2aqNdF3qFIPozUd "Soulless and stealing what they dare Hold your deck to your chest Faceless, nobody is your friend Make it, take it, they won't share" Not my usual EDM, Christian…
Blog Reflection: Hiding my Scars 10 Apr 2021 It's been 2 days. It feels like years. That I sent an email to my Pastor and I'm awaiting a response. I normally have the patience of a Saint, truly.…
Blog OCD, Shame, Fear, Hate, Traumatic Childhood…Oh My? 9 Apr 2021 I find myself upset, or "moody" currently and getting depressed. So rather than anxiety triggering a compulsion...it's my depression. Which for some reason, doesn't really feel right or make sense.…
Blog… Control the Panic, ERP 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 I did my first try at the exposure therapy (ERP) today and drove to my church and parked outside. My anxiety was through the roof and my chest hurt pretty…
Blog… Easter Didn’t Kill Me, but it Might as Well Have 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 Easter is hard for me. I feel guilty for ever feeling bad when people talk about Christ’s suffering. Maybe guilt isn’t the word, it just feels so much more than…
Blog… Huge Progress 31 Mar 20211 Apr 2021 I went through a lot today and it was hard, but things are looking up because I have support and hope. I talked to my psychiatrist about the religious OCD…
Blog… The Assault Victim’s Fault, a Pastor’s Opinion 31 Mar 202128 May 2021 Years back I nearly got up and walked out of a church in the middle of a service. I was a visitor to an employee’s church and the Preacher had…
Blog… Here’s Your Label, Ma’am 30 Mar 202128 May 2021 What's your label? Are you obsessive, anxious, depressed? What about the "technical" label? Do you suffer from Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, OCD (religious, relationship, sexual, et al), BPD, maybe even Psychosis??…
Blog Why Am I Horrible? 29 Mar 202128 May 2021 I honestly thought my thoughts would improve. I thought the "knowing" I have a specific type of OCD (scrupulosity) would decrease my overall anxiety and provide relief...and my symptoms do…
Blog Deserves its own Diagnosis? 28 Mar 2021 I have to think I am not the only one out there with the really toxic combination of Bipolar and OCD. The reason I think this particular combo is especially…
