Blog More Avoidance – OCD Triggered 20 Nov 202120 Nov 2021 I've done something that I just can't reconcile in my mind, and as far as my OCD is concerned, my mind tells me the only thing that can possibly make…
Blog… More Scrupulosity OCD Struggles, Alone 19 Oct 202119 Oct 2021 I think I'll never share my struggle with OCD with anyone but strangers online. I just don't know how to make a friend properly, or communicate like an adult in…
Blog How to Let OCD Ruin/Run Your Life. 16 Oct 202116 Oct 2021 I don't actually want my OCD to be running the show and ruining the party (don't you know, it's popcorn every night?). But I know exactly the recipe to let…
Blog… Tell Me Again How You’re “So OCD”? Self Care Break! 9 Sep 20219 Sep 2021 If you missed my simpleton’s explanation of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at the end of August, you can check it out here, if you don’t know what OCD is, or you…
Blog… Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, You’re Actually Not “So OCD.” What OCD Really Is. 28 Aug 202127 Dec 2021 I’ve learned a (comparative) tremendous amount about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since my diagnosis, which was roughly 2 years ago. I’ve learned the most information in the last 6 months from…
Blog… Facing the Fear of Baptism – Scrupulosity OCD 4 Aug 20215 Aug 2021 Sunday I faced my fear and I was baptized. What was I afraid of? Everything. The people, the actual baptism, the water, then the feeling of being wet afterwards -…
Blog Pretending Everything is Ok. Abuse and OCD Struggles. 5 Jul 20215 Jul 2021 Do you have those days where you wonder if everyone sees beneath the surface to what you’re hiding? The days where you’re not sure how you’re making it through and…
Blog Religious and Childhood Traumas, and the Aftermath 28 May 20217 Jun 2021 In a previous post a couple months back, I stated that all the hate belongs to me. Just a week ago I was feeling that intensity again, to the point…
Blog… Birthday Sadness, Social Anxiety, and Dealing with Narcissist Tendencies. 28 May 202128 May 2021 I just turned 40. I’m not depressed about the number in the slightest. I felt old a decade ago when I was developing signs of fibromyalgia. It’s just a number,…
Blog… The Hot Scrupulosity Question, When Does Salvation Finally “Stick”? 21 May 202128 May 2021 If I heard about salvation at the age of 9 and decided to myself, "Wow, I want that!" and then prayed what the preacher said to pray, is that when…
Blog Stressed and at the End of Your Rope. Do You Know When to Tap Out? 9 May 202128 May 2021 Sometimes stress can take its toll on your health, both mental and physical. I have experienced this time and time again where high levels of stress end up basically putting…
Blog Wish Me Luck, I’ll Try Not to Die From a Panic Attack. 5 May 202128 May 2021 I'm meeting my Pastor this morning and I feel like the anxiety is going to kill me. Like give me a heart attack. I had planned to discuss some moral…
Blog… Moral Ambiguity, Is it ok? 1 May 2021 I had a friend recently confide something in me she thought I would think badly about her or her partner/wife about. It breaks my heart that she would have thought…
Blog Mental Illness, Satan’s Lies, or a Bit of Both? 28 Apr 202128 May 2021 I took a huge step last week and shared much of my past/story with my Pastor, via email. I thought it was going to kill me, truth be told. The…
Blog… Deadlock, Stalemate, Standstill 16 Apr 202118 Apr 2021 News release: Social anxiety causes impasse. Or that’s what my internal news header would read if I had one. Think Inside Out kinda world going on (now I need to…
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