Blog The Blame Game, It’s My Fault You Didn’t Buy Me That. 4 Jun 20215 Jun 2021 I don't have what I asked for, for my birthday, because of...me? Apparently my husband is blaming me for him choosing to not buy me a sound system for my…
Blog My Secret Identity and the Employee Who Harassed Me 24 Apr 202128 May 2021 I've hesitated before to come out and say my profession, because it is a major identifier to those who do know me. But it is important to this particular turn…
Blog… Deadlock, Stalemate, Standstill 16 Apr 202118 Apr 2021 News release: Social anxiety causes impasse. Or that’s what my internal news header would read if I had one. Think Inside Out kinda world going on (now I need to…
Blog Hashimotos, My Answer to Prayer? Say What? 15 Apr 202128 May 2021 Most people when I tell them I have Hashimotos, they look at me sideways, as they don't know what I'm talking about. Or they look at my lovely colorful hair…
Blog… Stopping the Downward Spiral. 12 Apr 202128 May 2021 Anxiety kept me from church Sunday, and now I’m going down the rabbit hole of depression and even more anxiety. It feels shallow to admit it stems from not receiving…
Blog “Stupid seems to be in the air” 11 Apr 202115 May 2021 open.spotify.com/track/5f6JnxY2aqNdF3qFIPozUd "Soulless and stealing what they dare Hold your deck to your chest Faceless, nobody is your friend Make it, take it, they won't share" Not my usual EDM, Christian…
Blog… Control the Panic, ERP 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 I did my first try at the exposure therapy (ERP) today and drove to my church and parked outside. My anxiety was through the roof and my chest hurt pretty…
Blog… Easter Didn’t Kill Me, but it Might as Well Have 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 Easter is hard for me. I feel guilty for ever feeling bad when people talk about Christ’s suffering. Maybe guilt isn’t the word, it just feels so much more than…
Blog… Huge Progress 31 Mar 20211 Apr 2021 I went through a lot today and it was hard, but things are looking up because I have support and hope. I talked to my psychiatrist about the religious OCD…
Blog… The Assault Victim’s Fault, a Pastor’s Opinion 31 Mar 202128 May 2021 Years back I nearly got up and walked out of a church in the middle of a service. I was a visitor to an employee’s church and the Preacher had…
Blog Why Am I Horrible? 29 Mar 202128 May 2021 I honestly thought my thoughts would improve. I thought the "knowing" I have a specific type of OCD (scrupulosity) would decrease my overall anxiety and provide relief...and my symptoms do…
Blog Religious OCD, AKA Scrupulosity 27 Mar 202116 May 2021 Have you ever heard of Religious OCD or known anyone who has had it? I had not before a day ago, and apparently I have been suffering with this affliction…
Blog Stopping Obsessive Thoughts 25 Mar 2021 I am constantly having the thought, "You're a horrible person." or a variation of that theme. And "You're so stupid." And anyone who has no clue about intrusive thoughts will…
Blog Another Song on Repeat 25 Mar 202125 Mar 2021 open.spotify.com/track/0lG6QM1jjbbX5UUn3DPmrZ Alan Walker is my...soul child? (No clue how old he is?!) "Chaos feels so good inside, no more..." "Oh, I am feeling afraid But lately I lost my faith…
Blog All Alone, Can’t Do it All 24 Mar 202128 May 2021 As much as I'd like to be able to, I simply can't do everything. I have all my staff out today. One out on paternity leave, one out sick -…
