Blog… Tell Me Again How You’re “So OCD”? Self Care Break! 9 Sep 20219 Sep 2021 If you missed my simpleton’s explanation of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at the end of August, you can check it out here, if you don’t know what OCD is, or you…
Blog… Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, You’re Actually Not “So OCD.” What OCD Really Is. 28 Aug 20211 Sep 2021 I’ve learned a (comparative) tremendous amount about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since my diagnosis, which was roughly 2 years ago. I’ve learned the most information in the last 6 months from…
Blog Blue Moon Sick Day. Can’t Catch A Break. 6 Aug 20216 Aug 2021 Once in a blue moon, I'm not feeling well enough to work. Those are extremely rare occasions and mostly I can power through most anything physical and mental. For the…
Blog… Facing the Fear of Baptism – Scrupulosity OCD 4 Aug 20215 Aug 2021 Sunday I faced my fear and I was baptized. What was I afraid of? Everything. The people, the actual baptism, the water, then the feeling of being wet afterwards -…
Blog Pretending Everything is Ok. Abuse and OCD Struggles. 5 Jul 20215 Jul 2021 Do you have those days where you wonder if everyone sees beneath the surface to what you’re hiding? The days where you’re not sure how you’re making it through and…
Blog… Why I Deserved My Abuse. My Psychotic Break. 16 Jun 202127 Jul 2021 This is hard for me to talk about because it’s my dirty little secret. But it’s a million times easier than talking about my childhood, so go figure? The chain…
Blog Religious and Childhood Traumas, and the Aftermath 28 May 20217 Jun 2021 In a previous post a couple months back, I stated that all the hate belongs to me. Just a week ago I was feeling that intensity again, to the point…
Blog… Birthday Sadness, Social Anxiety, and Dealing with Narcissist Tendencies. 28 May 202128 May 2021 I just turned 40. I’m not depressed about the number in the slightest. I felt old a decade ago when I was developing signs of fibromyalgia. It’s just a number,…
Blog Wish Me Luck, I’ll Try Not to Die From a Panic Attack. 5 May 202128 May 2021 I'm meeting my Pastor this morning and I feel like the anxiety is going to kill me. Like give me a heart attack. I had planned to discuss some moral…
Blog My Secret Identity and the Employee Who Harassed Me 24 Apr 202128 May 2021 I've hesitated before to come out and say my profession, because it is a major identifier to those who do know me. But it is important to this particular turn…
Blog… Stopping the Downward Spiral. 12 Apr 202128 May 2021 Anxiety kept me from church Sunday, and now I’m going down the rabbit hole of depression and even more anxiety. It feels shallow to admit it stems from not receiving…
Blog “Stupid seems to be in the air” 11 Apr 202115 May 2021 open.spotify.com/track/5f6JnxY2aqNdF3qFIPozUd "Soulless and stealing what they dare Hold your deck to your chest Faceless, nobody is your friend Make it, take it, they won't share" Not my usual EDM, Christian…
Blog… Control the Panic, ERP 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 I did my first try at the exposure therapy (ERP) today and drove to my church and parked outside. My anxiety was through the roof and my chest hurt pretty…
Blog… Easter Didn’t Kill Me, but it Might as Well Have 5 Apr 202128 May 2021 Easter is hard for me. I feel guilty for ever feeling bad when people talk about Christ’s suffering. Maybe guilt isn’t the word, it just feels so much more than…
Blog… Huge Progress 31 Mar 20211 Apr 2021 I went through a lot today and it was hard, but things are looking up because I have support and hope. I talked to my psychiatrist about the religious OCD…
