This last week has been tough for my OCD. I did an exposure during my OCD coaching session and also did a review for my coach on Google, and since then, I keep having to redirect my OCD thoughts and stop my compulsions.
The only thing that seems to really help significantly is diving into my art. Which I guess I can’t complain, as I do love making art, but I can’t do it 24/7.
Last night my husband and I were out and about and I caught myself at the start of my compulsions numerous times. It’s actually a huge step that I was able to stop myself, since historically I haven’t been able to.
Today, though I started my day in my studio, we’re about to go to a church function and it’s extremely triggering for me. My exposure was emailing my Pastor, and of course he will be there. I want to avoid the anxiety going will cause, but I know avoidance is actually a compulsion!
I’ve been working on a piece for Easter all morning. I’m trying not to pressure myself to have it turn out perfect, so I have to tell myself if it’s awful, I can start over. I will share my progress so far…
My next steps will be to fill in the background and give shape to the forms. And hope that the larger figure looks like Jesus, because in a smaller version, everyone thought Jesus was a mother with a halo. *Face palm* The joy of being an abstract artist.
I feel so blessed to have my art to help me cope with my OCD. If I was left alone with my thoughts, I would likely just be trapped in a compulsion loop and avoid everything possible. I still avoid alot, but not nearly as much as I think I would.
Everyone needs a coping activity (mindfulness) such as art or writing or music. Perhaps even exercise, if you’re physically able, unlike myself. I do really enjoy walks with my music, if only my body could handle more than 2 blocks!
What do you do to cope with stress or anxiety or even the blues? I would love to know how others deal with their feelings (in healthy ways), so please share!