A little late to the Christmas party, but in plenty of time to hang the steamers for the New Year. So to speak.
Blogging is surprisingly harder than I thought with my particular “flavor” of OCD. And cognitively, I admittedly have issues putting thoughts in order to where they make sense without a lot of effort. More than when I was younger and words just easily flowed out of me (and made perfect sense the first time).
I’ve been away visiting my family.
Not yay, very not yay.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my mother and step-dad very much, but it’s hard to visit and harder each time.
I think what hurt my insides the most was to see she still harbors much racism, as does my sister. I struggle to see their point of view, I think having bias against someone or group of people, especially for something uncontrollable, is just…wrong. Let everyone prove themselves to be decent or crap human beings of their own merit. That’s how it’s supposed to be, right?
My visit home has me worried for their souls.
When we were telling my mother about how missionaries to China need body guards and protection the entire time they are in the country, and how truly dangerous it is to preach true Christianity in China… Her reaction was that of disgust on her face:
“Ugh, why do they need to go to China?” Like the Chinese don’t need missionaries.
I actually said something though:
“Because even people in China need to hear about the gospel, especially because they’re preaching false Christianity.”
But she doesn’t think of the souls that get saved when even just one missionary can preach the truth. I don’t even know what she thinks.
Otherwise though, the visit was positive in that it was nice to see everyone. I enjoyed spending time together with her and my sister both. We see each other only once or twice a year, so it was nice to catch up.
I realize many others visited family this weekend and likely had their own experiences, both positive and negative. Knowing how broken everything, everywhere is right now, I’m praying that everyone had something positive about their holiday.
If you’d like, please share your holiday experiences with me? I’d love to hear all about it!