Blog… Huge Progress 31 Mar 2021April 1, 2021 I went through a lot today and it was hard, but things are looking up because I have support and hope. I talked to my psychiatrist about the religious OCD…
Blog… The Assault Victim’s Fault, a Pastor’s Opinion 31 Mar 2021April 4, 2022 Years back I nearly got up and walked out of a church in the middle of a service. I was a visitor to an employee’s church and the Preacher had…
Blog… Here’s Your Label, Ma’am 30 Mar 2021May 28, 2021 What's your label? Are you obsessive, anxious, depressed? What about the "technical" label? Do you suffer from Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, OCD (religious, relationship, sexual, et al), BPD, maybe even Psychosis??…
Blog Hate is MY 4 Letter Word 29 Mar 2021May 28, 2021 All the hate belongs to me. I own it. It is mine...it is all for me. At least that is how it feels right now. I hate myself so much,…
Blog Why Am I Horrible? 29 Mar 2021April 4, 2022 I honestly thought my thoughts would improve. I thought the "knowing" I have a specific type of OCD (scrupulosity) would decrease my overall anxiety and provide relief...and my symptoms do…
Blog Deserves its own Diagnosis? 28 Mar 2021April 4, 2022 I have to think I am not the only one out there with the really toxic combination of Bipolar and OCD. The reason I think this particular combo is especially…
Blog Religious OCD, AKA Scrupulosity 27 Mar 2021April 4, 2022 Have you ever heard of Religious OCD or known anyone who has had it? I had not before a day ago, and apparently I have been suffering with this affliction…
Blog Loves Music Too Much? Pfft! 26 Mar 2021March 25, 2021 No one seems to understand my connection to music and the *feels* I get from a song that speaks to me. And well, those such songs? They may go on…
Blog Stopping Obsessive Thoughts 25 Mar 2021April 4, 2022 I am constantly having the thought, "You're a horrible person." or a variation of that theme. And "You're so stupid." And anyone who has no clue about ocd will try…
Blog Another Song on Repeat 25 Mar 2021March 25, 2021 open.spotify.com/track/0lG6QM1jjbbX5UUn3DPmrZ Alan Walker is my...soul child? (No clue how old he is?!) "Chaos feels so good inside, no more..." "Oh, I am feeling afraid But lately I lost my faith…
Blog All Alone, Can’t Do it All 24 Mar 2021May 28, 2021 As much as I'd like to be able to, I simply can't do everything. I have all my staff out today. One out on paternity leave, one out sick -…
Blog Drained, Physically and Mentally Empty. 22 Mar 2021May 28, 2021 I'm exhausted, inside and out. Mentally drained, physically tired, and I hate that I keep wanting to just...throw in the towel. Literally just throw up my hands and give up.…
Blog… Inspired by Pain 17 Mar 2021May 16, 2021 I have been contemplating starting a blog based around my mental health struggles for many months. The fuel that lit the fire under my butt, unfortunately, is how severe my…